Depression is a low-down, dirty dog and I am ready to kick its ass once and for all!
I have to be truthful, I struggled over the holidays. A funk came over me. Not the smelly kind, but the kind that made it really hard to get into the holiday spirit. And I am the one who LOVES Christmas time! Everyone is extra nice and in a good mood and I do not hesitate to join right in spreading the holiday cheer. My family will tell you, I blast Christmas music and bake cookies and decorate the house every year.
But something came over me that made it extra hard to get into the mood and enjoy the holidays this year. I didn’t feel like going shopping or being around people. I didn’t feel like baking or playing holiday music. And the worst part about it – I don’t even know what triggered this funky mood to overtake me.
That’s depression for you though. It doesn’t wait for an invitation. Depression comes in and kicks you right in the face at the most inappropriate time. And you know what! I got sick and tired of it. I went toe to toe with depression this time.
I fought like hell, like my life depended on it – BECAUSE IT DID. Depression comes to do 3 things:
- Steal your joy
- Kill your spirit
- Destroy your faith
Not this time. I fought. I fought through those mornings I didn’t feel like getting up out of the bed. I fought through the physical pain that manifested itself in my body as a result. I felt sore and achy as if I was truly in battle – because I was. I fought to enjoy the holidays because I owed it to my family. And I fought to keep my joy, faith and spirit lifted – because I owed it to myself.
People with depression say the struggle is real, I say the struggle is worth it. I say that because I learn something new about myself every time I have to go into battle against depression. I learn that:
- I Am Strong
- I Am Worth the Fight
- I Am Not Defined by this Diagnosis
- I Am a Winner
Don’t be kind to depression. Kick its ass because its mission is to kick yours. You have the strength to win over depression – it may require you to dig deep, so dig. It may require you to seek counseling, so seek. It may require you to shed tears, then cry. Whatever you have to do get ‘er done. Above all never, ever give up #BattleBuddy!
Lila Holley is a retired US Army Chief Warrant Officer Four, two time Amazon best-selling author and certified life coach specializing in helping Military Members and Veterans through the emotional process of transitioning from military life to civilian life. Her book ‘Battle Buddy: Maneuvering the Battlefield of Transitioning from the Military’ chronicles her own struggles with depression during her transition process. Contact Lila at firstname.lastname@example.org or at her website http:becomeabattlebuddy.online.